Still twenty-something, and still searching

Phew. It's been years since I've been here.  It's been two years since my last post (and, not surprisingly, since my last relationship), and months since my last legitimate date. I don't say that as a 'woe is me', but more as a 'let's get back in it'.

A lot has happened since last being here.  A lot of thought has gone into why I wrote a blog before, and why I hope to write a bit more in the coming months. I've gone through a lot since last being here: a lot of mistakes, a lot of joy, a lot of fear, a lot of sincerity, a lot of vulnerability, a lot of 'wins', a lot of 'losses', a lot of revelations, a lot of searching, a lot of lessons learned, and a lot of Friday nights with Netflix and wine.

Typical

More on all of the above, as I continue to blog more frequently, I promise.

As the title suggests, I'm still twenty-something and still searching.   But before writing about all of the searching, I wanted to address the 'why' of this blog.  I questioned the "why" of this blog for a long time, and I came to a few major revelations.  

1) Writing here allows me the outlet to 'get out there'- I've haphazardly danced around the pretend dating world for years now, (and...trust... I'm a horrible dancer) but now, I'm committing more to getting out there. Not that I need a reason to date, or a blog to get me out there, but it puts onus on me to commit a bit more. Plus, that little clock is ticking- I can only be a twenty-something-year-old for a few more years.  Maybe 9 or 10. (Side note: I never really knew the word 'onus' until a few minutes ago. I always thought it was 'ownness'. The more you know...)

Tick-Tock..  everyone else is getting married!

2) For years, our dating lives have been secret.  For years, we weren't out, weren't allowed to discuss men that we were interested in, and pretended that our dating life involved women, or no one at all. And now, without hesitation, I can not only talk about dating, but I can scream about it from the....comfort of my living room. I want to blog because well.... I can.  Which leads me to 3...

3) Not only CAN I write about the trials and tribulations of my dating life, but I can help others see that the shit that I deal with, the crazies that I encounter, the feelings of vulnerability, and the simple joys in a 'good morning' text are no different than what anyone else experiences. Dating in my world is no different than dating in any world, and my hope is that what I reflect on through this blog is relatable, even if I'm undatable.

So, stay tuned. Read (or don't read) as I learn a bit more about myself, about this world of dating, and about 'the one' who is out there, just waiting to have a few blog posts written about him.

Lesson learned: our journeys are all the same.  I'm just dumb enough to write about them.